Monday, March 24, 2014

星星

22/03/14
I am not sure what am I doing..
with silence to express the disappointment and angry mood..

even have to show the fake smile...
luckily till the end of the day, 
CNY cultural night 2014 made me at least feel better,
you know, just have something to concentrate with,
and not to think a lot~
I guess, this is the end of it.. 


Sometimes you have to give up on people. Not because you don't care, but because they don't.
 
p/s: for the friends that comfort me.. thousands thankyou from me.. thankyou for listen to me..

Saturday, March 15, 2014

初体验

2014年的白色情人节,没情人的我 ,
还是与一班有了情人的姐妹们一起度过。
tada!我第一次的红豆汤,
献给了姐妹们。
可惜shuyin小姐早来了,
我们的饭后节目可精彩了。
呵呵。
除了沛怡小姐,大伙儿都献上了第一次穿bikini ,
没有走秀,
大家都害羞穿上了,下半身藏在衣橱后。XDD
真是不错的经验。
总之,我们肯定要沛怡穿一回的~哈哈哈~~

Friday, March 14, 2014

我想你

我还是听不完那段录音~
你最后对我说的那些话。
每次都是只坚持了那1分钟,
眼泪就是流个不停。
后悔的,是我没多多向你撒娇,在还有机会时,
遗憾是,你等不了那一直都期盼的毕业典礼,
天国的你,过得好吗?
我很想很想你。

Wednesday, March 05, 2014

我不会忘记

The never forget, the final semester...
I am doing my best to create the best memory in my final semester..
Not bad, in this 2 weeks, at least the never forget chapters go well,

never forget,the girls getting more and more conversation together,
craps around, about us, about others and about family...

 never forget the gathering with my lovely team, brothers and sisters..28/02/14
never forget the sunrise at Bkt Panorama, Sg Lembing... thankyou, Ah Gan and JiaHan for accompanied me, even wanna giving up the sunrise watching after I vomited... thanks a lot guys... 02/03/14
never forget the cooking master, Hongluan, always taking care of us in the room.. thanks for the loh hon guo liang teh, ABC soup and the fan shu tong shui...

never forget the first time squash with the girls 4/3/14

I guess gonna more never forget coming up soon...

p/s: my wish: able to snap photos with each and everyone of you before graduate..

Monday, January 13, 2014

Reply 1997

一口气把剩下的5集追完,我也真行,明明还有考试呢!
还写点后记*疯了的状态* XD

因为我看到了完全很可能我也会经历的生活,
疯狂粉丝然后结了婚生孩子的生活。*噗*
对,我大学毕业后,还是会继续的爱5只,
可能就没爱得那么疯狂,
不过,我有机会,还是会想去他们在日本和韩国的演唱会!哈哈
*那可是我的梦呢!*
Reply 1997讲述的是青春,
那段18岁大家都经历过的事。
第一集,诗源完全反映出我在看演唱会的影子!
每个表情,激动都是那样的!
使我狂追了这部剧,
虽然,第一个理由是因为浩元而看的。=^=
接下来,每集几乎都有我难忘的一段。

16集里最难忘的几幕:
1)对自己偶像的热情。就像诗源这样,30几岁的时候,我的screensaver还是会神起的其中一个。最后的大嫂是仙后时,我激动到快尖叫出来,呵呵,就还是5人的歌嘛,还有那个rising sun演唱会现场,就是像我这样,与fans club的其他仙后在会场meet meet,呵呵!还有大嫂的ID是俊秀*噗*我的也是!!!哈哈哈哈,完全就是自己。erhem,那个大嫂还是医生呢,我也不赖,化学工程师。哈哈哈哈*臭屁*

2)初恋与友情。我18岁时,可没有那么坚固的友情存在,可庆幸的是,到现在为止那班中六的同学,还是保持老样子,我可希望我们的友情可保持到那么久。初恋嘛,就没有,还没谈恋爱, 也没有两兄弟的黑骑士,也没有金叹或英道那样的高富帅, 可单恋还是有的。譬如,喜欢篮球队队长,见到他我的脸可是超红的!而且,眼睛完全不敢对视地呢。

3)姐妹情。做着一样喜欢的事。这个嘛,Ivy就是那个姐妹咯。那些这三年做的事,不用多说。哈哈哈!!我希望我们毕业后,还是会这样颠下去。

4)家人。爸爸妈妈打闹的时候,嫌这个不好吃,那个不好吃,然后吵闹这情景,还蛮像的。虽说我爸妈没吵得那么凶。还有我妈不会煮那么大堆食物*简直是牛吃的分量*要我吃完。爸妈送诗源上大学时那个表情,我很记得。因为,我父母的表情也是那样。唠叨着,看着巴士座位,帮你调到你坐得舒服那个位置,还有我拼命要他们不要那么担心我,快回去的表情。全部都是一样的。诗源爸爸有胃癌时,那个情况。就是那天我接了爸爸电话,说,弟弟进了医院,情况不好的时候是一样的。平时就讨厌弟弟,也打闹过,可那时我就了解到弟弟是我很重要的人。要是上天要带走他们其中一人的话,那我宁愿上天带走的是我。这就是家人。

5)妈妈与女儿。我妈和他妈还蛮相似的,我们会一起追剧,评论着那个帅那个不帅。我妈也很哈韩,哈哈哈,所以,就一样的咯。而且爸爸还要给我们那个脸看,哈哈!一样的嘛!

追完这部后呢,感想?我决定不要这样灰,
灰?因为嘛,我想太多,我觉得没人可以接受这样迷偶像的我嘛。哈哈。*无言*
结婚生孩子?干嘛去想?该来的时候就会来咯,搞不好闪婚?!*噗*

人生嘛,就是要活在当下,
青春,就是不顾一切,幼稚但热情的那段生活。
我的青春还继续着,虽然要结束了。
这些日子证明我也疯狂过,爱过,痛过,哭过,笑过。
接下来我还会以对得起我的生命而创造不同的回忆。

这就是我的Reply 90代。



Saturday, January 11, 2014

又一次

又一次的梦。

最近的我应该过得很累,不过累得还是有价值的。
比方说,有机会写journal。
还有,论文也不用改了又改。
最后,还有一群让我很开心的pd队友。
虽说我这个组长很没用,头脑不灵,
可这一份project还是这一群队友努力呕出来的。

回到话题,那个梦。
梦,让人逃离现实的那点时间;
梦,让人得到少许希望和安慰的片刻。
也许是如此的定义,
很累的我又再一次的梦见到他。

心,踏实平静得很。
和上次一样,
感觉到的是多了一份的安全感。
一样是温暖的手,一把抓住了我的右手,
在那危险的瞬间 ,
把我档在他身后;
就这样被保护了。
耀眼的光让我看不清他的脸,
只是感觉到那只手的温度。

梦只到此,就断了。
我再记不清后面的事。
第二次了,
同一个人,第二次,
真的很不可思议。

那现实中,他是否很快就会出现在我身边?

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

Day By Day

Was repeating the same routine, 
and I feel I getting lost somewhere,
where mainly I dunno why I have to work so hard, or why have to do that particular thing...
Only the day with jogging and gym, I somehow feel the release for the 1 hour...
I doubt the extent I can go through all these stress...
and maybe all the 4th year are in the same situation as me?
that one I'm not sure...
I only know, the 12 hrs reaction runs makes me exhausted,
and I really scare after meeting Dr chin, the experiment run have to add on like what happen today...
I don't even have a proper time watching drama/entertainment show...
and sometime, even lunch also RUSHING swallowing the food...

every time telling myself, yes, I can do, but I know kinda reach the limitation already...
The worry on PD progress, where I don't think I could lead the team properly~~
super guilty for that...

Ask again, what can I do?
How?

Why have to?


I HATE SUCH SUCKS LIFE....

Sunday, September 22, 2013

The life

Just back from meeting those new fresh 1st year juniors....
I am so glad that they playing happily and enjoyed themself....
Welcome to UMP and be part of CCC =)

I really very happy to see those crew...
awwww, that was a long time, didn't meet you guys...
Shim, Randy, Weikiat, HanJie, BROTHERRSSSS that making fun on me, =)
KianWei, Jovin, Deon, SumYee, YuenKei,  Darren, WeiJian, KaiQuan, Xiao Ming really great to see you guys also...
and just little while for MaoMao and Joean <3 i="">
Seriously, I am so happy to see you guys...

With the tension and pressure from the PD and PSM,
I rarely laugh that much and that loud like just now =)
Thank you guys, for the night cheering me up...

and of coz, not to forget, imitating Des is the most epic activity of the night
p/s:控制不了就不要去想。或许在把自己放在不同的situation来找solution。那起码,发生一些事情,也许你还可以有个心理准备。当朋友就是不简单的,因为重视,所以在意。

Friday, September 13, 2013

平常心

给自己写了无数偏的这三个字。
快乐要紧,尽乐也要紧=)
想到过后忙的日子,真的要时时警惕自己“起码我是充实地过”。
一定要享受过程。
熬夜过程,读journal的过程,一切又一切的过程。

噢,忘了,还要按住自己容易生气的那把火。
昨天差点又发脾气了!*真该打*
莫生气,莫生气。

最后感恩我爱的人们都过得平安健康。 =)


p/s:木头明早回家,见不到咯。今晚我又不行。
当他对我说*why you never learn from lesson?* 我顿时笑出来,呵呵呵。
不是别的,就,觉得要是单独和木头见面的话,我可能必须一直挖话题*很累的嘛*。、
好啦,我会learn from the lesson 的。
可怜他晚餐只吃水煮蛋过活。=/