Day By Day

Was repeating the same routine, 
and I feel I getting lost somewhere,
where mainly I dunno why I have to work so hard, or why have to do that particular thing...
Only the day with jogging and gym, I somehow feel the release for the 1 hour...
I doubt the extent I can go through all these stress...
and maybe all the 4th year are in the same situation as me?
that one I'm not sure...
I only know, the 12 hrs reaction runs makes me exhausted,
and I really scare after meeting Dr chin, the experiment run have to add on like what happen today...
I don't even have a proper time watching drama/entertainment show...
and sometime, even lunch also RUSHING swallowing the food...
every time telling myself, yes, I can do, but I know kinda reach the limitation already...
The worry on PD progress, where I don't think I could lead the team properly~~
super guilty for that...

Ask again, what can I do?
How?
Why have to?


I HATE SUCH SUCKS LIFE....