Stress up fed up

After back to uni, the things i always worry on is the scholarship problem

Example, this afternoon, i gave the co-sponsor company a call,

and asking the questions that i wanna asked,

too bad, Ms Pauline seem like fed up dealing with me *her tone wasn't good*

Gotta wait for 2 days for her to reply then.

Admund suggested me to talk to my parents, he know i facing a big problem.

But I just don't want to pull them into this trouble, which is my mistakes.

I wanna try my best to solve this myself.

who knows, I cried when dad called me just now.

Although he don't know that.

Whenever I face some problems, my family always there with me,

I really thankful that they're trying to help me to solve it.

But, i seriously feel bad and guilty,

*that's why i can't stop my tears from dropping

Is my decision to accept the scholarship, 

and now I am the one who brought the problem to my family as well.

I am sorry to let my parents to worry.

really sorry

p/s:就很赞同suki unnie 的感言~ " 我讨厌坚强两个字，坚强其实就是强颜欢笑，突然觉得这样很虚伪，虚伪到自己都讨厌自己"

一段感情 开始了也不是好事~~