星星

22/03/14
I am not sure what am I doing..
with silence to express the disappointment and angry mood..
even have to show the fake smile...
luckily till the end of the day, 
CNY cultural night 2014 made me at least feel better,
you know, just have something to concentrate with,
and not to think a lot~
I guess, this is the end of it.. 

Sometimes you have to give up on people. Not because you don't care, but because they don't.

 

p/s: for the friends that comfort me.. thousands thankyou from me.. thankyou for listen to me..

初体验

2014年的白色情人节，没情人的我 ，
还是与一班有了情人的姐妹们一起度过。
tada!我第一次的红豆汤，
献给了姐妹们。

可惜shuyin小姐早来了，
我们的饭后节目可精彩了。
呵呵。
除了沛怡小姐，大伙儿都献上了第一次穿bikini ，
没有走秀，
大家都害羞穿上了，下半身藏在衣橱后。XDD
真是不错的经验。
总之，我们肯定要沛怡穿一回的~哈哈哈~~

我想你

我还是听不完那段录音~
你最后对我说的那些话。
每次都是只坚持了那1分钟，
眼泪就是流个不停。
后悔的，是我没多多向你撒娇，在还有机会时，
遗憾是，你等不了那一直都期盼的毕业典礼，
天国的你，过得好吗？
我很想很想你。

我不会忘记

The never forget, the final semester...
I am doing my best to create the best memory in my final semester..
Not bad, in this 2 weeks, at least the never forget chapters go well,

never forget,the girls getting more and more conversation together,
craps around, about us, about others and about family...

 never forget the gathering with my lovely team, brothers and sisters..28/02/14

never forget the sunrise at Bkt Panorama, Sg Lembing... thankyou, Ah Gan and JiaHan for accompanied me, even wanna giving up the sunrise watching after I vomited... thanks a lot guys... 02/03/14

never forget the cooking master, Hongluan, always taking care of us in the room.. thanks for the loh hon guo liang teh, ABC soup and the fan shu tong shui...

never forget the first time squash with the girls 4/3/14

I guess gonna more never forget coming up soon...

p/s: my wish: able to snap photos with each and everyone of you before graduate..

Reply 1997

一口气把剩下的5集追完，我也真行，明明还有考试呢!
还写点后记*疯了的状态* XD

因为我看到了完全很可能我也会经历的生活，
疯狂粉丝然后结了婚生孩子的生活。*噗*
对，我大学毕业后，还是会继续的爱5只，
可能就没爱得那么疯狂，
不过，我有机会，还是会想去他们在日本和韩国的演唱会！哈哈
*那可是我的梦呢！*
Reply 1997讲述的是青春，
那段18岁大家都经历过的事。
第一集，诗源完全反映出我在看演唱会的影子！
每个表情，激动都是那样的！
使我狂追了这部剧，
虽然，第一个理由是因为浩元而看的。=^=
接下来，每集几乎都有我难忘的一段。

16集里最难忘的几幕：
1）对自己偶像的热情。就像诗源这样，30几岁的时候，我的screensaver还是会神起的其中一个。最后的大嫂是仙后时，我激动到快尖叫出来，呵呵，就还是5人的歌嘛，还有那个rising sun演唱会现场，就是像我这样，与fans club的其他仙后在会场meet meet，呵呵！还有大嫂的ID是俊秀*噗*我的也是！！！哈哈哈哈，完全就是自己。erhem，那个大嫂还是医生呢，我也不赖，化学工程师。哈哈哈哈*臭屁*

2）初恋与友情。我18岁时，可没有那么坚固的友情存在，可庆幸的是，到现在为止那班中六的同学，还是保持老样子，我可希望我们的友情可保持到那么久。初恋嘛，就没有，还没谈恋爱， 也没有两兄弟的黑骑士，也没有金叹或英道那样的高富帅， 可单恋还是有的。譬如，喜欢篮球队队长，见到他我的脸可是超红的！而且，眼睛完全不敢对视地呢。

3)姐妹情。做着一样喜欢的事。这个嘛，Ivy就是那个姐妹咯。那些这三年做的事，不用多说。哈哈哈!!我希望我们毕业后，还是会这样颠下去。

4）家人。爸爸妈妈打闹的时候，嫌这个不好吃，那个不好吃，然后吵闹这情景，还蛮像的。虽说我爸妈没吵得那么凶。还有我妈不会煮那么大堆食物*简直是牛吃的分量*要我吃完。爸妈送诗源上大学时那个表情，我很记得。因为，我父母的表情也是那样。唠叨着，看着巴士座位，帮你调到你坐得舒服那个位置，还有我拼命要他们不要那么担心我，快回去的表情。全部都是一样的。诗源爸爸有胃癌时，那个情况。就是那天我接了爸爸电话，说，弟弟进了医院，情况不好的时候是一样的。平时就讨厌弟弟，也打闹过，可那时我就了解到弟弟是我很重要的人。要是上天要带走他们其中一人的话，那我宁愿上天带走的是我。这就是家人。

5）妈妈与女儿。我妈和他妈还蛮相似的，我们会一起追剧，评论着那个帅那个不帅。我妈也很哈韩，哈哈哈，所以，就一样的咯。而且爸爸还要给我们那个脸看，哈哈！一样的嘛！

追完这部后呢，感想？我决定不要这样灰，
灰？因为嘛，我想太多，我觉得没人可以接受这样迷偶像的我嘛。哈哈。*无言*
结婚生孩子？干嘛去想？该来的时候就会来咯，搞不好闪婚？！*噗*

人生嘛，就是要活在当下，
青春，就是不顾一切，幼稚但热情的那段生活。
我的青春还继续着，虽然要结束了。
这些日子证明我也疯狂过，爱过，痛过，哭过，笑过。
接下来我还会以对得起我的生命而创造不同的回忆。

这就是我的Reply 90代。

又一次

又一次的梦。

最近的我应该过得很累，不过累得还是有价值的。
比方说，有机会写journal。
还有，论文也不用改了又改。
最后，还有一群让我很开心的pd队友。
虽说我这个组长很没用，头脑不灵，
可这一份project还是这一群队友努力呕出来的。

回到话题，那个梦。
梦，让人逃离现实的那点时间；
梦，让人得到少许希望和安慰的片刻。
也许是如此的定义，
很累的我又再一次的梦见到他。

心，踏实平静得很。
和上次一样，
感觉到的是多了一份的安全感。
一样是温暖的手，一把抓住了我的右手，
在那危险的瞬间 ，
把我档在他身后；
就这样被保护了。
耀眼的光让我看不清他的脸,
只是感觉到那只手的温度。

梦只到此，就断了。
我再记不清后面的事。
第二次了，
同一个人，第二次，
真的很不可思议。

那现实中，他是否很快就会出现在我身边？

Day By Day

Was repeating the same routine, 
and I feel I getting lost somewhere,
where mainly I dunno why I have to work so hard, or why have to do that particular thing...
Only the day with jogging and gym, I somehow feel the release for the 1 hour...
I doubt the extent I can go through all these stress...
and maybe all the 4th year are in the same situation as me?
that one I'm not sure...
I only know, the 12 hrs reaction runs makes me exhausted,
and I really scare after meeting Dr chin, the experiment run have to add on like what happen today...
I don't even have a proper time watching drama/entertainment show...
and sometime, even lunch also RUSHING swallowing the food...
every time telling myself, yes, I can do, but I know kinda reach the limitation already...
The worry on PD progress, where I don't think I could lead the team properly~~
super guilty for that...

Ask again, what can I do?
How?
Why have to?


I HATE SUCH SUCKS LIFE....

The life

Just back from meeting those new fresh 1st year juniors....
I am so glad that they playing happily and enjoyed themself....
Welcome to UMP and be part of CCC =)

I really very happy to see those crew...
awwww, that was a long time, didn't meet you guys...
Shim, Randy, Weikiat, HanJie, BROTHERRSSSS that making fun on me, =)
KianWei, Jovin, Deon, SumYee, YuenKei,  Darren, WeiJian, KaiQuan, Xiao Ming really great to see you guys also...
and just little while for MaoMao and Joean <3 i="">
Seriously, I am so happy to see you guys...

With the tension and pressure from the PD and PSM,
I rarely laugh that much and that loud like just now =)
Thank you guys, for the night cheering me up...

and of coz, not to forget, imitating Des is the most epic activity of the night

p/s:控制不了就不要去想。或许在把自己放在不同的situation来找solution。那起码，发生一些事情，也许你还可以有个心理准备。当朋友就是不简单的，因为重视，所以在意。

平常心

给自己写了无数偏的这三个字。
快乐要紧，尽乐也要紧=)
想到过后忙的日子，真的要时时警惕自己“起码我是充实地过”。
一定要享受过程。
熬夜过程，读journal的过程，一切又一切的过程。

噢，忘了，还要按住自己容易生气的那把火。
昨天差点又发脾气了！*真该打*
莫生气，莫生气。

最后感恩我爱的人们都过得平安健康。 =)


p/s:木头明早回家，见不到咯。今晚我又不行。
当他对我说*why you never learn from lesson?* 我顿时笑出来，呵呵呵。
不是别的，就，觉得要是单独和木头见面的话，我可能必须一直挖话题*很累的嘛*。、
好啦，我会learn from the lesson 的。
可怜他晚餐只吃水煮蛋过活。=/

久违

很久没写了，很久过后的一篇。

我其实抱着没有很大的希望，有就有，没就没的心态。
PD competition 本来就不容易， 身边的朋友一个个的也不简单。
其实，不是什么，血很多时候都出乎我意料，
就像刚刚，我迷惘的时候，其实她那句话就让我醒了，
明知道，很多都是明知道，可大家却很不老实，
这样的竞争，我可不喜欢。
摆出自己不想要，结果自己就去接近目标，
我不是惊讶，而是心冷。
看到大部分人都是这样，而且都是身边的朋友，
都不懂要怎样了。
我从来都不喜欢去争，所以在局外看得到那很冷酷的竞争。
人真的很复杂。
我只有很无奈的看清，然后自己最清楚谁可信，谁又不可信。

嘉慧，认清这个社会吧，利益当前的话，就是如此。
最后，以平常心去面对这个比赛。

加油。
 

We're "T"

Date: 18 May 2013(sat)

Venue: Stadium Melawati

TVXQ Catch Me live world tour in Kuala Lumpur

演唱会后记

现在播放着他们的歌曲，演唱会还是历历在目。我当下的心情就好像你去见一个很想念的一个人，那种见到的窝心，激动，感动，感谢，庆幸，开心全在这晚。

一首首陪我度过这5年的种种，经历的种种，熟悉的歌，今晚就听了现场版的。我现在没有很high，没有好像去追韩星的那个感觉，就是充满感激的让我遇见他们。原来就是那么爱他们俩。

今天，两点到了会场外，到处走走，等着一班和我一样傻的女人们。买了官方的荧光棒，到处溜达。我还是第一次穿裙子打扮漂亮到会场，只因我知道这次不用顶着大太阳排队，我的是对号入座，舞台的中央。终于等到那班女人，哈，终于又见面了！*开心闲话吹了很多，就好像在论坛里那样*。闹哄哄吃了pizza，拍了照片。到了5点就正式排队进入*东于哲的小东就排在我前面，让我愣了一下下*

会场渐渐地被那红海淹没。荧幕，音乐响起*原谅我skip掉前面的开场艺人，不懂是谁*我眼眶就湿了，泪水控制不了留下来，身边的小雯也哭了。我了解，毕竟我们第一次见到他们，也隔了6年的大马站，想过他们两经历的低潮，5人变2人的形式，我哭了。很近很近的距离，他们就在我眼前。原来他们都很高，健硕的身形。珉珉全场就捧着笑容，我很爱那傻瓜的表情，高音呈现到无人能比，我家的忙内原来如此好看，真的很喜欢那萌笑容。浩浩那自信的表情，天，秒杀了每个在场的仙后，男人气魄，霸气，舞蹈，领导气氛，真的很棒，我为你而骄傲。

珉珉solo的confession 时，最后的那段，我就很自然的摆了一个心形，他看到我了，微微笑了，我当时脑袋空了，我确定他当下看到了，我的嘴型念着saranghae, 他的回复是pugupshida…. 奇迹梦幻般就发生在我眼前。奇迹不止发生一次而已。当合唱Iwanna hold you我又比了个心型，浩浩本来很酷的脸笑了，我确定他看到了！*原在于，我隔壁的两位也做了同样的动作*，他看到我们！我就这样被赐予梦幻般的礼物。我要表达的爱，他们看到了！

Unforgettable的视频，弄到我狂飙泪。拿着应援的布条，泪在滴。那样子肯定很丑*他们也看到了*。谁叫连续的3首歌都那么催泪-I’ll be there, I never let go。其实两个人真的很窝心，很眷顾每位仙后，互动很多，想必大家都可以看到他们很清楚。红海变紫海的瞬间，希望他们收到我们的心。演唱会里，他们向大家道歉，等了6年，谢谢我们一直在身边。从来没质疑过他们现场唱live，配合度，整齐度我都打满分，我专注听着每首歌，真的好像在梦里般。他们最后的表情，有想掉泪，我心都揪了。天啊~

这里有几个让我感触的：

• ·         很爱那个说那小女孩幻想与他们结婚的那个视频，我想说，我也愿意。

• ·         看到浩浩吻了suli，还真的----忍受不到喊出来了*虽然fx里我喜欢suli*

• ·         coffeeshop有珉珉在，画面很美好

• ·         运动健身的视频就是让我狂尖叫

• ·         珉=萌

• ·         郑队长躺在舞台

• ·         珉珉把水淋自己又泼dancer =^=

• ·         Encore 好爱hiyaya,sumerdream和sky,虽说舞台没有tokyodome般那么大，可那气氛是一样的。

• ·         郑先生，飞机上跳下来很危险，不要这样了！

• ·         两人的发型就很顺，没喷spray,甩发很帅！

• ·         两人感情真的很好，就那一幕encore浩浩推着珉珉要他说些话时，浩浩的表情。

• ·         Catchme的LED赞！

• ·         Purpleline的opening,队长很帅！

• ·         申展台和我视线几乎平行

• ·         旧歌应援都不错，就是唱I swear时不够齐

•    杀虫剂就是让我无言，沈昌珉~~

9点多结束了演唱会。我还是哭笑着感谢他们为我们呈现的舞台。约定了，就要遵守，郑队长。最后感激我身旁的女人们，为我们没变心的爱，干杯！我庆幸认识你们，刚认识的从泰国来的朋友，小雯的韩国手信。还有，谢谢爸爸妈妈和弟弟的载送，谢谢谅解我。感谢上天，我见到他们了，5年没爱错。坚信着，守护着，没后悔。

我爱你们，东方神起。

天！我开始想念你们了，不懂你们服役之前有没有机会呢？

 包含了泪水和汗水的夜晚。爱你们。

Here are the following song list that TVXQ performed today

1. Rising Sun
2. Getaway
3. Hey
4. (Short Clip) + 'O' Jun Ban Hap
5. Like A Soup
6. How are you
7. Journey
8. Confession
9. Honey Funny Bunny
10. Wong Number
11. I don't know (Korea Version)
12. Humanoids
13. Purple Line
14. Before You Go
15. Destiny
16. Memories + I never let go + Always There + As Always
17. I wanna hold you
18. Here i Stand
19. Dream
20. Catch Me
21. Intro + BUT (Korea Version)
22. Why
23. Unforgettable
24. (ENCORE)
25. Mirotic
26. Hiyaya (Summer Days)
27. Summer Dream + Sky
28. I'll Be There

Taiwan Day 50

After so long only decided to complete the last post about my story in Taiwan... Is already 6 months... The fact is, I got Nick's postcard this afternoon, and I really miss him a lot recently~ *Boa said Ah zai reserving some of  his UK frens for me XP* So, this just remind me I was spending my very last day in Taiwan with him.. So, my last post on Taiwan journey, dedicated to Nicholas Leung =)

Date:08/08/12
Venue: HshinChu city

I remembered, the last day, I walked around Hsinchu town area with Nick.. To be more exact, shopping with him?  Walked into few Nike/Adidas and Puma shop to get a hoodies, and ya, finally I got my blue Nike hoodies with 40% discount..

Still remember, the kids that cried a lot while we waiting for the bus back to the trainee house.. His mum dragged him into the bus... =) 
Nick brought me to his fav restaurant and we had our lunch there.. Huge portion, and I couldn't finish it.. Anyway, he treated me this set lunch as farewell..

Meeting up with Nav and Vagiz.. Nav just came back from Hua Lian and Vagiz came back from his scooter+around Taiwan trip.. 4 of us went to  a teppanyaki restaurant nearby, to have the farewell dinner.. Is like my whole journey that always stick with 4 of them,*included Wynlim*, and now going to say goodbye to them soon.. I feel sick, and I didn't order anything from the restaurant.. After the dinner with them, we back to trainee house, and Jerry& Iris were here.. They came to trainee house just to say goodbye to me.. and Those just got back from farm, Jess, Angela,Boa, Agnes and Vera..

My flight is at 11.35pm, where Howard, gonna accompany me all the way to airport.. Hugged everyone of them tightly and had snap shot together.. *pictures, that without Wynlim, seem lack of the important one* Is time to leave, and Nick helped me to drag the luggage, to the street outside of the trainee house where I'm gonna to take the shuttle bus to THSR station and then to the Taoyuan airport.. My last hug to him, Thanks Nick  =')

The whole journey to airport,thought will be boring, however, Howard did talk alot compared to usual.. surprisingly.. He is kinda quiet person... Manager Howard, thanks for sending me to the airport.. CTLC always the caring one as usual..  I texted everyone using the Taiwan number, for last goodbye, switched off the phone, walked into the awaiting area and got into the plane.. Landed on Malaysia about 4am..












*******officially ended.. my 50days in Taiwan... ********

Just 4 hours distance, separated the friends that I met in this 50 days, kinda sad to say goodbye...
I miss you guys a lot, really.. =')

words on the wall..

The last date with the son

Mini doughnuts

and my last mixed pearl bubble milk tea

The very last shot with them

Jerry

Iris

and photo without Wynlim...

with those back from farm..

and with my manager.. Howard

Posted by Celine Foo at 1/30/2013 01:57:00 AM

Taiwan Day 49

Date:07/08/12

Venue: 頤禾園有機農園 the green farm

 

Wake up at 6.45am.. Was sleeping on the sofa after ate medicine.. *The one who skype without earphone was so annoying* Yeah, I am going to spend the day in farm… Nick will go to the farm at noon.. JingNing as well…

So, Boa, Jess and I went to farm.. followed Aunty to the market to buy ingredients to cook Bah Kut Teh later.. Is my 1^st time to cook, so, I just hope it wont taste bad after all.. HAHHA .. 2day farm work as usual, bring the goats to eat some grasses, help to collect the vegetables, plant seed, watering the vegetables, feed chicken.. Best part of the day is in the kitchen where experience cooking 1^st time ever in my life… LOL.. well, due to I was having flu, so, I can’t taste any smell, Thanks to Boa and Jess helped me to taste the BKT.. end up, it was not bad(Success!) .. The farmer said I can graduate now.. HAHHHA.. Too bad Nick couldn’t taste the dishes that we cooked since he haven’t fully recover from diarrhea

This the Bah Kut Teh I cooked =)

Boa's cooking is delicious as well!

annoying part is weight ourself after lunch.. =(

Gained weight!!!! T^T

and the farmer recorded my weight on the whiteboard! T^T

The farmer =) Steven Lee!!!

Thanks to them, who treat us like their daughter.. Thanks~

 last sunset at Taiwan *so many time I watched the sunset and sunrise with my fren here , rite Nick?

Night time, farmer bring us to a restaurant nearby… well, a farewell dinner for Nick, JinNing and me… and of course definitely beer.. 1^st time drunk where I can’t walk properly even fall down from the chair*SO EMBARASSING!!!* after at least 10 times one shot… we are so worry on the plans later.. scare we couldn’t make it to give the farmer a surprise later..

The plan is we will go to his house which like 20 min walking distance from the trainee house, and celebrate father’s day with him since 8^th August is Father’s day in Taiwan… Luckily, we reached trainee house around 9.30pm… Terrance and Agnes laughed at me because I can’t walk straight.. *long sigh, Thanks to the farmer for that ==* And we made it!!! Farmer was so surprise =)  but honestly, this is what we could do for him.. really appreciate that he always taking care of us while we are away from our country, is like our father in Taiwan.. =) Aunty as well… God Bless them..

2moro plan? Meet Jerry and walk around in Hshinchu if possible… Nav haven’t get back from HuaLian…

p/s: Hate the ants that in kitchen…  *JEREMY LIN! Damn, I missed the chances to meet him AIKS

Posted by Celine Foo at 8/31/2012 12:17:00 PM